You wake up.
"So it was all a dream..." you think to yourself,
You continue, "And to think I was so happy. Of course that wouldn't be very realistic now, would it? I'm never happy anymore."
That was the umpteenth dream you've had this month that involved being a girl somehow, despite being born male.
Getting up is hard when you have nothing left to live for. You used to joke "Well at least I'm not Greg." but the truth is that you've sunk so far that Greg doesn't even want to be you. You're stuck working a dead-end job that you hate and you have valid reasons to suspect that your girlfriend has been cheating on you but you don't want to bring it up because if you do you'll lose her and then you'll be alone forever.
You know your life is miserable and you just sit around wallowing in it. You used to have dreams and ambitions. You continually dream, daydream, and imagine how happy you'd be in your own body as a girl, but you just ignore these thoughts right after you have them and dismiss them, because in reality, if you told anyone about this it would be embarrassing, right? You'd get called a creep, a weirdo, a tranny, and everything in between. Besides, having these thoughts doesn't make you transgender, right?
This is just a fetish, and that's reinforced by the fact that you occasionally go onto DeviantArt and jack off to art of guys turning into girls, or that time you went onto an interactive TG caption website and added a ton of captions to it. There's nothing more to it, right? Right? You can just keep this to yourself forever. You want to maintain the status quo. You fear the unknown. Who knows what you'll lose if you open up about this?! You're afraid.
Everyday you hate the way you look and your own body, and it's gone on for so long that you're totally numb to it and feel nothing anymore. When you think about being a girl you're vulnerable, and that makes you uncomfortable. You suck at coping with negative emotions, so you just block it out and try to ignore it but it continues to grow.
You can't sit in your bed all day with your existential thoughts and self-analysis about why you're a failure and how you continue to hurt yourself and do nothing about it, you have a soul-crushing job to do!